Saturday, July 26, 2008

Was there a time you weren't here?

Six months. I feel as though we can finally do a little celebrating.

Nothing has been easy since Little Bird came to town. The first two months of his life were agonizing for me. I thought I had made a terrible mistake in becoming a mother. I couldn't feed him like I should. I couldn't get him to sleep like I should. I was bound to the house as though an ankle bracelet was hidden just under my sock.

Last week, he and I traveled across the country together. Just the two of us through airports and on planes.

That's saying a lot for someone who let a friend come over one day just to let the dogs out into the backyard. Because I could not leave my room. The walls would have crumbled in on me and the floors collapsed had I left my room with the baby.

But now we are mobile. Slings and Mei Tai and a Moby. We travel. We shop. We play. We walk. We sing. We dance.

We.

I am no longer just I.

There is me, and I am still her, but there is us.

A family.

I've always wanted a family.

Little Bird. Christopher. Mr. Kickypants.

Thank you for coming into my life. Thank you for being my son.

I'm sorry that I fed you apples and filmed it for the world to see. That will happen though, you providing entertainment. You were so cute in your disgust; I just had to share.

15 comments:

  1. was that his first solid food? if so, i'm amazed at how much went down!

    awfully cute.

    it is hard to remember having no child.

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  2. magpie's right. if that was his first solid food, he is going to be an eating CHAMP.

    adorable!

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  3. There you go. It does get better. I'm glad you've made it to that place now.

    Of course, it gets harder again, but then it gets better again. And we're all out here cheering you on.

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  4. He's so cute. I loved watching that video. It reminds me of one we took of Bailey eating pureed corn, which she hated but kept opening her mouth for. They'll forgive us, right? ;)

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  5. You've come a long way because you are now an awesome mom. Those first few months are so rough.

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  6. OH! That was so freakin funny!! He's adorable.

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  7. Oh, the full body shake every time he ate a spoonful. Hilarious. Sorry for laughing at you, buddy.

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  8. Mmm...got to love those "systemic" reactions! He's a cutie pie!

    He's such a trooper to keep going for more. Sweetpea? You get one spoon in and the mouth clamps shut. Game over.

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  9. LMAO! So adorable! Can't wait to get to this stage with my Boo.

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  10. I can really really relate to those agonizing first few months. My 2nd baby was like that. So hard. But the good months that follow more than make up for it. :-)

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  11. This is a really touching post. I remember the fear of leaving the house... actually I still feel it most days. I also remember feeling like I had made a mistake, but a mistake I wouldn't change for all the money in the world (at least most days).

    Your baby is a lucky boy.

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  12. Oh my gosh - the way he keeps opening his mouth hoping the next bite will taste better! Too cute!

    And I still have days where I am afraid to leave the house. Yesterday was one of them

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  13. How funny! And cute! What a good eater, though!

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  14. That is just ADORABLE!

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  15. Aw, Mr. Kickypants. So, so cute.

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